Que Sara Sara

I take, currently, Buspirone for anxiety/depression. I can take it up to 3x a day. I started taking it in the morning. However, it effects my Adderall in my body in a very weird way. I feel heavy, foggy, numb, yet alert. It’s like I can pay attention, easily, to two things at once, but everything else is a massive effort. Talking, typing this, keeping my eyes open, moving at all.

but on the other hand, I don’t feel like dying. I’m not sobbing in agony. Silently wailing like a mute banshee. It may sound overly dramatic, but this is how I was. Clawing at the skin on my thighs, sides, back just to stop the crying.

Tomorrow I meet with my med Dr and we get some meds figured out. Hopefully they will stop the wailing but I won’t be numb either. That’s my hope. We will see.