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Special interests, for autistics, aren’t usually wrong, but can be misdirected. I guess the time that they are wrong is when they affect your life and another person’s (or people’s) life in such a way that causes harm. For example, you have a special interest in WWII weapons. You may even own some. It would be wrong to use those weapons to harm yourself or others. WWII weaponry can be very interesting and how different countries took ideas, or actual items (like Germans taking British tanks) and repurposing them. The act of war itself is horrific, but parts of it are very interesting.

I have had people as special interests (SI), usually an actor/ess, a band, etc. I will learn all I can about the person/band. I love their acting/music, try to watch all their movies or go to as many concerts as I can within 5 hours drive from my home. I’ve seen some other amazing bands because of following one band around my area, and liking new bands.

When I was dating I made that person my SI. I mean, why not? It shows my devotion to them, right? Okay, it’s a bit creepy, but it is meant with good intentions.

I haven’t had a person SI in years. Now I do, and I’m not sure what to do. I haven’t done anything. See, they are attached to another SI, my ancestral history, which I’m trying to learn more and more about. So, I’m taking a class. The class is online, based at a university within my state. I don’t have any other connection to this person. I know little about them and I’m trying very hard not to dig deep because it would be misdirected. Maybe even wrong because I would just hurt myself. So far it’s an innocent attraction on my part only I’m sure. Hopefully, I will come to my senses soon.