Que Sara Sara

For two years, I’ve had very short hair, and I’ve loved it. It’s low maintenance, sort of, and better sensory wise than long hair or even ear-length hair. For much of the past two years, I’ve also had fun colored hair. Not the usual hair dyes, but blue, teal, purple, multi. Then, going to a…

Things were going relatively okay at the start of 2020, or so I thought. In reality, I was in autistic burnout. Socialization at work was hell, I wasn’t diagnosed autistic yet, but I had thoughts that I was. I got my diagnosis in July of 2020. But not really understanding autistic burnout and being in…

For months there has been a National (US) shortage on all ADHD meds, especially stimulants. This is not good. The media has played it up, per usual, that it affects children and parents the most because their children are no longer zombies and mummy is going through more wine than usual. Adults have ADHD too.…

Lies I tell myself to get through That never think about you But I miss that delirious joy Just talking to you Now it’s gone And no matter how many channels away I still flip back to yours At least once a day.

Nothing No love, no hate Nothing You did this to yourself You went from my every thought A very little thought To nothing I wish you no ill will But now I’m free I avoided the toxicity Caused by your static I changed the channel. -Sara Farmer 11/6/2022

Your silence is deafening A great cacophony in my head Reverberating within the walls My skull cracks, the pressure is so great My nails clawing at the pain Ripping chunks of hair and flesh Eyes bulging Blood seeping from ears and nose A final great explosion brings relief. Why did you have to go silent…

So…. I’m going back to university! Yes, I know… again?! Haha I’m going for my Masters in Creative Writing with a focus in Fiction. I was, at first, trying to take classes at my local university, but their classes are only a Bachelor degree and classes are held while I’m at work. Another Bachelors degree…

So, I see a hematologist for my anemia. I used to see one at hospital C in a different town. They hated to send records to hospital F because they weren’t in the same network. It’s a very annoying American thing. But, that dr left the practice, so I needed a new hematologist. I went…

Stomach doing flip flops Tuned out to the flip side Your face always on my mind Smile plastered on my face It’s like I’m Walkin on Sunshine Can’t keep my head out of the clouds People telling me to tune in I am, but the station is always on you. Bad timing, but thats okay…

Special interests, for autistics, aren’t usually wrong, but can be misdirected. I guess the time that they are wrong is when they affect your life and another person’s (or people’s) life in such a way that causes harm. For example, you have a special interest in WWII weapons. You may even own some. It would…